Why God, I Need You
Updated: Nov 23, 2019
In the midst of what seems like yet another hard week, on my way to the gym Wednesday afternoon I took a right turn instead of going straight and headed towards the river to go for a run. After all, it was a beautiful day outside. 60 degrees and sunny a week before Thanksgiving? Yes, please.
When I was in college I started running. I don’t know what the real purpose behind it was, but I do know what I found was addicting. Not only was I pushing my body in ways I had never pushed it before, I learned that the mental and emotional benefits were unparalleled. Each time I hit the pavement or the track, I knew what to expect as I put one foot in front of the other, willing myself not to give up, and most certainly not thinking about the pressure of life resting on my shoulders.
I think this is what I was looking for when I decided to take the turn and go for a run instead of heading to the gym. I was looking for a few minutes of rest, mental and emotional rest. For three miles that’s what I got. The weight of the world wasn’t so heavy. The sadness I’ve experienced as of late didn’t seem so life altering. And most importantly, I was reminded that regardless of the season I’m in, God is with me. Running alongside me, willing me not to give up.
On top of what has already been a very challenging season for me both personally and professionally, last week a family member received a devastating diagnosis, several family members fell and broke bones, and multiple friends experienced loss that has rocked their world. It’s too much, right? How can one person juggle so much heartbreak in a such a little time? I’ll tell ya how, therapy, coffee, and Jesus - not in that order.
Trying to reconcile why so many bad things are happening is impossible, friend. I’ve spent much of the last few months asking God where He is in this mess. Last week when each day came with more bad news and this week started off the same, I asked God the same thing. Why so much sadness? Why so much heartbreak? Why, God?
Two things I’ve pressed into:
1) Although life gets hard, we can rest in knowing that God never leaves us (Deuteronomy 31:6). This doesn’t mean He’s going to immediately change our circumstances and make it all better. It means that while we’re on the bathroom floor weeping with no strength to keep going, God is there. When you’re three months into unemployment and have no idea how you’re going to pay your bills, God is there. 2 Chronicles 20:15 says “the battle is not yours, but God’s.” When we have no idea how our hearts are going to heal, where our next paycheck is going to come from, how that relationship is going to be mended, we can trust that our Heavenly Father is fighting for us.
2) Have you heard the song “Why, God?”by Austin French? If you haven’t, go give it a listen! The song goes like this:
Do we feel so alone?
Every single day
Fighting through the pain
Hoping there is hope?
I don’t understand
But I understand
Why God, I need you
It’s, why God, I run to your arms
Whether life is going just how you’d hoped or you’re experiencing a season that has rocked your world, the enemy wants us to run FROM God instead of TO God. In seasons of highs, he whispers, “YOU did this. If it weren’t for YOUR talent, this would have never happened.” In seasons of sadness, he whispers again, “God doesn’t love you, He doesn’t care about you. If he did, why would this be happening?”
No victory would be achieved without the helping hand of Christ. And when life is hard, I don’t know about you, but I find more comfort in knowing the Creator of the Universe is fighting for me, holding me, than I do when I look for temporary comfort elsewhere. So like the song says, no, I don’t understand why certain circumstances are what they are, but I do understand why I run to God. In Him, I find victory.
While I was running yesterday, God reminded me ever so kindly that I don’t have to know why I’m walking through what seems like an eternity of winter. Maybe at some point I will see the reason, but maybe on this side of Heaven I won’t. What I have to lean into is that regardless of where I am in life, God is right by my side. He is FOR me, not AGAINST me. He is good and is working for my good (Romans 8:28). We have to stand firm in the truth because the enemy wants us to forget the promises of God. If you saw my insta stories last weekend I talked about embracing what we feel, but remembering that sometimes what we feel isn't always a reflection of what the Word says about who God is. If you're interested in watching, you can check that out here.
If you’re in a season of heartbreak, I want to remind you that while it may seem like this season will never end, it will. I remind myself this daily. Remember the times God has been faithful and stand on the promise that God is always faithful, so He WILL rescue you again.
If life is going great for you right now, remember to thank God for what He’s done for you. Give Him the glory for what’s He’s accomplished through you.
I will leave you with this: God is good, He is kind, He is gracious. He knows what’s best for your life better than even you know. Trust His plan. Instead of asking "why, God?" instead say "this is why God, I run to you, because I need you." Press into His love and when it all seems too much, ask Him to fill you with the strength to keep going because my friend, He will do just that.
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